A weekend full of regret

commitment has never been a strong point of mine. let’s just say i didn’t keep my promises this weekend. I disregarded the values of my self and my boyfriend. I don’t think i honestly knew how bad i messed up until i had to tell my boyfriend of the past night’s event. to hear the pain in his voice was on the hardest things to go through. what killed me the most was hearing him try to be strong and be okay with what i had to tell him. the fact that he forgave me makes me the luckiest girl alive. i don’t know i’d handle the situation if it was reversed. he took it so much better than i probably would have. this whole situation has made me value what i have so much. i know i have a lot of commitment issues but i am going to work hard from now on to make sure this situation never happens again. i don’t care if i have to stop drinking all together, he is it worth it to me.


Winter quarter begins.. and I can’t stop thinking of Spring

I cannot believe I use to complain about the cold weather at home where I had a car to take me everywhere. I’ve never been as cold as I am walking 15 minutes to class across campus in 10 degree weather. I can only dream of riding in a heated vehicle 😦 Every morning this quarter I work bright and early all the way across campus. Granted, I usually take a bus, but the wait for the bus is equally as long as walking to work. The freezing weather is not a happy way to start my day, but I suppose the snow is quite pretty. Walking home from my night class the other night as the snow fell around me and the gas lights shining around me felt like a scene perfect enough for a movie.

On a happier note, my boyfriend is coming in two days! I can’t wait to see him. My day is simply happier with him by my side. When i come home from class friday he should be waiting for me in my room. Nothing seems better than to have him there for me all the time. Going to different schools didn’t seem so bad at first but the distance is really starting to get to me. It’s not impossible to go without seeing him but I’m just not the same when I’m missing him everyday. However, he’s taking the greyhound to see me this weekend and I cannot wait! We have plans all weekend already and plenty of time to do nothing at all together. I’m just so excited to spend time with him this weekend since I may not see him for weeks again.

Oh well, off to bed so that I can wake up early and go out into the blustery weather!

Post New Years, Not something to celebrate

When I arrived at the party last night, I was happily greeted by many varieties of alcohol, all of which I had to choose from. To my dismay, those choices are not fond memories now. With three hours of sleep, I came home this morning to lounge around my house, and post up in the bathroom for quite some time now. I would still be sleeping, or should I say trying to sleep against the will of my turning stomach, if the Rose Bowl were not coming on soon. It may be an early night after the games over around 9. Hey, not only 5 year olds can go to bed that early. I suppose I will go try to eat something if my stomach agrees, Ta-ta.